I don´t quite understand the blog biz. Too much time away from the real world I suppose. But, I suppose its just a place where i write what I think and if someone is bored enough they come here and read it. I suppose its better than inundating people with big mass emails. SO, I will just start writing on this thing.

Im outa here in a few months. Here being Nicaragua. Hard to believe. Ive been here for about two years. I came here with no expectations and am going to leave here with no clue. But, hey, that´s life as I live it. I´ve had fun, learned a second language, traveled all over, and had enough sense knocked into me to stay confused and frustrated for the rest of my life.

So now I am trying to do my goodbyes to people without completely losing my mind in sadness and guilt. How do I leave my friends here, knowing that I go home to a life that most of them will only dream of living? I just say goodbye, get as many of them as I can an email address and hope that I will be able to afford to visit soon. I realize now that it was kind of naiive of me to think that I could just waltz in here and get close to people and learn etc, and then be able to go back home and keep living the way I´d been. Ive been ruined. Im worthless in the life I used to live. Time to reinvent.

BACK TO SAC. That is the next step. Im going home to see my fam. I get to finally meet my new niece stella, my sister mary´s daughter. I also will get to meet up with my brother dave´s new girlfriend. She´s not so new, actually. Im just a few years behind.